The defeated triumph.........

Hurt and tired of fighting with the world
she wept until there were no more tears left to shed
Yet the pain remained unperturbed
Her face was swollen her eyes were red

There was no one to be blamed for what had happened
There was nothing anyone could do
She had chosen her own fate
This day was to come, long before she knew

This was the only way she could alleviate her pain
Of losing someone so close
She had been warned by all her loved ones
But she had chosen a bed of thorns, and a few petals of rose

She knew the days of merriment would be few
The days of sorrow would last forever
Yet she wanted to spend the last few days of his life with him
Her now dead husband, her one time lover

She had been strong enough
To fight for her love against all odds
She went against practicality, and the entire world
For some miracle to occur, she had prayed to all the Gods

When the reason for her existence
Was vanishing bit by bit
She fet like a burning candle
Which once was brightly lit

She would think,' He doesnt deserve this pain
He is too good to be going through this
How am I going to live without him
How am I ever going to come out of this'

'I never accepted true love existed
Until, into my life he came
After which my life became a bed of roses
Nothing was ever the same'

He taught me to love myself
He believed in me when i failed
He stood by me always, held me together
Whenever I was sad, whenever I wailed

How was I to leave him like this
People said you are out of your mind and lost
But could I leave him stranded like this
When he needed me the most?

His dream was to spend my life with me
He did not care about anything else
How could I not do that for him
How was I to deny him that happiness"

Every minute with him she cherished
Stood by him as new problems surfaced
But seeing him in pain was extremely difficult for her
She was dying within, but put up a brave face

Her heart ached as the time came nearer
But at times she wished he would die
From this wretched pain he would be relieved
Then she would curse herself for thinking this way, she dint know why

When the time came for him to go
He had looked deep into her eyes
He had said,'I love you like crazy I hope you know
'You are my angel, my true love, a blessing in disguise

He then left her with memories sweet
She felt she should join him too
But in her womb lived another life
Which gave her a hope new

She got up feebly from the floor
Moved towards the door
She wiped her tears determinedly from her face
And walked out of the door with full grace....