The year 2009....

i look back at the time that has gone


another year is coming to an end

we will step into a new year with the break of dawn

this year was, of happiness and sorrow, a perfect blend

some dreams came crashing down

some unexpected ones came true

this year as a person i have grown

now is the time to start afresh, anew

i learnt a lot of new things about myself

something which was unknown to even me

i have put away forever somethings into my heart's shelf

so that i can be what i want to be

in life i have found a new direction

will tread along that path now

and this time wont go wrong my selection

coz i will battle and win anyhow

i am looking forward to the new year

to create pleasant memories new

i am letting go of all my fears

coz i have realized life is very short, days are very few

this new year i make this resolution

will set myself from all bonds free

i will face every problem upfront, find a solution

and remain forever happy and glee!!

My Heart....

i fail to understand my heart
y does it shower so much of love and care
although everytime it cries when with someone it parts
tolerating the pain which is impossible to bear

yet it never tires of loving everyone
although it knows they have to go away
it believes in living for the moment having fun
not thinking about that unfortunate day

i feel scared that it will be hurt
i try to stop it from getting bound
but it tells me stop being so curt
coz of this attachment only u have so much happiness found

true that people have to go
true that maybe they will neva come back again
but loving with all your heart you should know
is the best thing in life from which you should not refrain

from the fear of being hurt, people lock me
but they are absoultely unaware
that they will be truly happy only if they set me free
coz u only gain if you dare

allow me to explore
i will never let you down
let me all your emotions pour
from your face i will help wipe away this frown

people are neva bad
only their circumstances experiences make them so
everyone is deep inside sad
this is something you should know

dont be afraid to love
coz of the fear that you will have to let go
dont set aside your emotions, dont shove
aside what i say, coz its true and you know

walk across the path that i have set for you
i cant promise you happiness forever
you will be hurt but you will feel utmost joy too
and you will have no regrets ever

The trial of the past...

sometimes even when all the people you love are around you, you feel sad.all the bad
memories come flashing in front of your eyes and alongwith that the fear that something
like this will happen again. although at the most all you can do is keep yourself busy so
that your mind gets distracted from these thoughts, they always find a way to creep into
your mind dissolving all the peace that was prevailing in your soul.we all make mistakes,
but not always are we able to accept that and move on. sometimes the mistakes are so huge
that their shadows haunt you forever.and there is nothing you can do about it.there is no
way you can go back, turn back time and undo whatever has happened.there is always some
hollowness in your heart, some vacuum which can never be filled.sometimes circumstances
are the culprit, sometimes our false pride, sometimes our selfishness, sometimes our
anger.we may regret something for the rest of our life, but the truth remains that there
is no way you can change your past nor can you remove the hollowness that persists, nor
can you break free from the load that you are carrying.and sometimes when the same
situation crops up again, you feel so paralysed you are afraid you would make the same mistake
again that you do nothing about it. and that again in most cases adds to your regret.you try to run away
from the situation, but the more you try to run away from something, the more fiercely it follows
you....wish we all create so many happy memories that these happy memories conquer the bad memories and shoo them away forever...or maybe when it comes to bad memories we all become like the Aamir Khan of Ghajini!!

Save Me..............Mother

please dont do this to me dear mother


i want to see the world, i want to play with my brother

i want to see the beautiful flowers

i want to get drenched in the first rains showers

i want to see the twinkling stars

i want to hear the honking of cars

i want to bathe in the waterfall

i want to play with a doll

i want to hold your hand and learn to walk

i want to take your name first when i learn to talk

i want to learn to read

i want to help you out whenever you need

i want to step into the world

i want to fly like a bird

i want to gaze at the moon

i want to see the butterfly come out of its cocoon

i want to be carried in Father's arms

i want to be adored for my playfulness and charms

i want all the love and care that you shower on my brother

i want that we grow up together

i want to be born

i dont want that your heart be torn

i know Father doesnt like me now

But once i come into the world, he will i know

please Mother dont kill me in your womb

I dont want to so soon be buried in a tomb

Save me Mother,please don't kill me

Please Father,please listen to me....


SAVE THE GIRL CHILD

My Amma Appa

I know that am really blessed, i really know it. though i have faced too many ups and downs in life, i still believe that nobody in this world is as blessed as me. Because nobody has my Appa and my Amma as their
parents.the most wondeful parents in the entire world.at every step they have guided me and all the while they expected only one thing from me, that i be happy.during my teenage years like everyone else, i had my share of misunderstandings, fights with them, hurt them, hurt myself annoyed them to the hilt, but even then they were large hearted enough to forgive me everytime. there was a time in my life when i did not know which path to take.

i was confused about my career, after my first year of engineering i realized this was not my forte. my Amma Appa were very supportive of me. not once did they crib that we have invested so much money on you already, you should have been wiser in taking your career decision, now you have to finish this. infact they encouraged me to go for some other course, because they believed that my happiness was more important for them than anything else in the world.then i did not understand how lucky i was but now when i look back i cant thank God enough for the blessings that he has showered on me in the form of Amma Appa.

i had my share of fights with Amma,extreme ones too. I did not like the way she was over concerned about me. I wanted to be independent but she was so concerned and protective about me that she wouldn't let me do anything on my own. how i would wished to stay alone, do my own thing, lead life indepenedently,be my own boss.but now when am away from home, i miss her pampering, her care, the warmth of her love, her non-stop talks, her masala stories, her PJs and even our fights! i miss the way she would force me to eat things i disliked since they were good for my health, her insistence on me going for walks, her shouting at me when i would use the internet for long hours, just everything about her.and Appa, my bestest friend in the entire world. we would have so much fun teasing Amma, pulling her legs, commenting on her oh so nutritions unedible food!!!rarely can you find a household where parents and a child are the bestest of friends, i am proud to say that mine is one such household. i can discuss anything under the sun with them and i know they wont mind. and the best thing is they know me better than myself. wish i had listened to them always would never have had to go through my tough phase in life.

my Amma gets strong intuitions when something wrong is going to happen to me, even petty things like mouth
ulcers. hehe she would suddenly come and tell me that i should start taking vitamin tablets. and me being me wouldnt listen to her and the very next day i would be suffering from mouth ulcers! i still remember i had met with a minor accident once ,i was just coming back to my senses when i heard my cell phone ring. i picked it up it was Amma on the line. She said,"I thought you called me you are ok na?". I couldn't believe it! She could actually sense something had gone wrong somewhere. Seeing the depth of love that she has for me,brought tears to my eyes. And as for my Appa, he is so nice its unbelieveable. He is the most contented person on earth, always happy with whatever he has. Never once have i heard him complain about something that he doesn't have. He always makes use of resources that he has and this is something that he has taught us too. He is extremely simple and never expects anything from anybody.He has never encouraged us to get in the rat race,never merged success with prestige.For him success meant enjoying your work, such that it doesnt seem like a job anymore. I have learnt so many things from him. He is so patient and tolerant it is very hard to believe.Hehe because my Appa is so perfect, i have set such high standards for my hubby that i bet such a guy can never exist in this world(and this is what i secretely want!).

My Appa Amma are the nicest people human beings on earth. So many times people have taken advantage of them, i would get angry but all they would tell me was let them do what they want, why do we have to get affected by all that? we helped them because we felt like and the story ends there.This kind of niceness, ability to forgive and forget, shower so much love and care unconditionally is extremely rare.I can never thank you enough Amma Appa for whatever you have done for me.



You are the bestesssssst parents in the entire universe.....

You are my source of light through tunnels dark,

You are my enlightenment,my life's spark

You are my ray of home in difficult times

You are the diamonds for me which so brightly shine

You are my angels sent from heaven up above

Showering me always with so much care and unconditional love

I am so blessed that in my life i have you

i am so very lucky, i have best friends,that too in my house,not one but two!

What matters the most.........

sometimes in life we forget what really matters to us. we are so much into the rat race that we do not realise that we are losing the essence of life. it is small small things which give us greater happiness than anything else.when we look back onto life, more than our achievements, it is the smile that we saw on our loved ones faces that brings a bigger smile on our faces.you could have earned so many laurels but if you have nobody to share that with everything that you have achieved seems fruitless. you might become a billionare but how much money can you spend on yourself alone? each one of us dreams to become highly successful in life, but the dream always includes the happiness of the people we love too. but in the process of growing big in life we get so obsessed with things that we stop enjoying life. we forget that the sole reason why we want to become successful- the happiness of our loved ones is vanishing bit by bit. hence it is very important for us to prioritise things in life and i personally believe that nothing can ever be more important than your family and friends. whatever you are today is only because of them.time is precious, so spend as much time with your loved ones as you can, since time once gone never comes back.

I asked God....

i asked God today why do you give us things if you have to take them away
He said, to make you understand its importance, to teach you without it to stay
i asked,if i have to stay w/o it y did it, into my life come
He said to teach u something, to impart u wisdom

i asked God why did u create sorrow
He said to bring for you a better tomorrow
i asked him y do all bad things happen together
He said, so that you may stay happy forever

i asked, why do u give us so much pain
He said through this pain you will only gain
i asked,y don't u give us everything we want,
leaving us with memories which will forever haunt

He said life is a long journey,
it is not only about being rich and earning money
these memories are your biggest wealth
alongwith your loved ones,and your good health

whatever i do is for your best
do what you have to, to me leave the rest
your job is to live life to the fullest
keep no burden in your chest

I am always there for you all
To hold you whenever you fall
Just remember me whenever you need me
and i will come to you and set you free....

The Power of Love!!!

has money become more important than life? is money the only thing that makes the world go round? wherever i c people around me are in a race to earn, to become rich, to build their dream house, to buy their dream car. but even after getting all this are they truly satisfied? nahhh. sumwhere in this race for money we are losing the essence of life. it is not money that makes the world go round, it is love. have you ever thought about the power that love has? look back into your life and remember the times you spent with your loved ones. you can feel the warmth in your heart can't you? aha now ur smiling.... did u feel the same kinda warmth when u bought ur dream car? nahhh.......
people often underestimate the power of love. i personally believe that love makes the world go round. everyone wants to be loved, wants to be cared for. everyone wants someone who will understand them, trust them blindly, make them feel worthy. but the fear of being hurt, being let down is so strong that people build a wall around their hearts, not allowing anyone to come in. but inspite of that there are people who just break down the wall that you have built, and become the reason for your being. before you know it the wall has been broken. yes love does cause a lot of hurt and pain, but it makes life more beautiful. you get a reason for your being, a reason to smile, a reason to live life to the fullest. there is nothing more fulfilling than living life for others. the feeling is entirely different and brings so much more happiness than you could ever have imagined.Love makes you complete, makes you whole.it has the power to transform your soul.you yourself must have experienced this in your life isn't it? there are people who without doing anything find a way into our hearts, teach us things without really trying to, make us better persons.love people without any reason,,unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. This is the most difficult yet the best thing that you can do and it will become a prime reason for your happiness.in life more than being successful ,more than being rich, it is more important to be a good human being. and only love can teach you that......

Maybe....

Have never felt like this before,
I feel like a queen wearing a crown
My heart has opened its door
It has found someone it can call its own
I feel like am reborn
Maybe I am in love with you

Your smile has become the reason for my being
Through your eyes I want to see the world
I don’t understand this weird feeling
Around you revolves my entire world
I feel like am reborn
Maybe I am in love with you

When you are around I don’t  see anyone else
I only want to hear you speak
It’s insane but I am enjoying this madness
My heart has never felt so weak
I feel like am reborn
Maybe I am in love with you

I think of you all the time
If asleep, I dream about you
Seems like my soul has come alive
Everything around seems so new
I feel like am reborn
Maybe I am in love with you


I miss you as soon as you are gone
I want to spend every minute of my day with you
Morning, evening, dusk or dawn
When you are not there I start feeling blue
But with you in my life, now, I feel like am reborn
I want to be yours forever don’t want to be alone,
I believe its true
Yes am in love with you

life's twisted ways

sumtimes v r punished 4 no fault of ours. we start wondering y did this happen to me? where did i go wrong? my intentions were only good y did i have to go through this? i have neva done nethg wrong to ne1, forget done neva even though about doing nethg wrong. y did i have to face this then? is this what you get for being nice?

but realise that whatever happens in life happens for a reason. though you may not know the exact reason now, in a few days or months or maybe years u will.
i believe that the things that happen in life are predetermined. Yes, to some extent you can change the course of your destiny but u will ultimately reach where you are destined to be. u will get what is meant for u, nothing more nothing less.

Maybe its unfair, but the trick is to be happy with wateva u have. Yes, try to get what u want but if u dont get it realise something better is in store for you, this was not meant 4 u let it go.

every person in this world is born to serve a purpose and to determine what that purpose is, is the true essence of life.if u feel that ur facing too many obstacles realise that ur getting closer and closer in realising ur purpose in life. these obstacles will teach u what ur purpose in
life really is.

everything that happens in life has a reason so never be dejected,think of life as a school learn new
things everyday.

come....fall in love... with yourself

the worst thing that can happen to anyone is feeling disconnected with oneself. imagine you don't even know who you are what you like, what you dislike. in the process of trying to fulfill someone's expectation of how you should be, people are ready to forget themselves, change themselves completely. Sometimes even sacrificing their morals and beliefs only to realize in the end that it's just not worth it. nobody in this world is so important that you have to change yourself for his/her sake. yes work on your flaws, try to be a better person, but there is no need for you to become something that the other person wants you to be. be the person that you are and people will love you for that. if a person cannot accept you the way you are, realize that there is nothing wrong with you,infact the other person is too foolish to understand how special you are.if you change yourself just so that someone else likes you, realize that you are making the biggest mistake of your life. you are not only losing yourself in the process, but also losing out on the chance of meeting the so many wonderful people in this world who will love you for what you are and not what they want you to be. and it is not necessary that everyone in the world likes you.you cannot keep the entire world happy, nobody in this world can then why on earth do you have to burden yourself trying to please everyone around you? the most important thing in life is to love yourself. you are what you are because you are meant to be like this. no two people in this world are alike, there can be nobody like you. sounds impressive doesn't it? and yea it is absolutely true. so fall in love with yourself, if you already are fall in love all over again ;)

Failure: The stepping stone to success

i truly believe that failure is the stepping stone to success. although initially it becomes very difficult to accept that u have failed, this failure later helps you in identifying your strengths and weaknesses. you can work around them to reach where you want to. you also grow as a person when you face failure. you become stronger, open minded, start accepting people the way they are(even the weirdest of them). the most successful people in the world have all faced failures, which was actually the catalyst for their success.and the earlier u face success the better it is for you.u start introspecting and realize what you actually want to do. and it is extremely important to know what you really want else u will keep drifting along the river of life, not knowing where u r going,which direction to take.even on the personal front this failure gives a huge advantage. ur able to identify who is ur true friend and who is not.so if ur facing failure now, be happy because now it is guaranteed that ur going to be hugely successful in life! cheers :)

My World

Far away from this big bad world, I have built a world of my own
Built on the cement of hope, where the seeds of happiness are sown
Where to love is the way of life, to stay happy is the aim
Where life is considered to be a boon, not a petty game

Where kindness is rewarded with a heartfelt smile
Where happiness prevails all the while
Where no discrimination exists of any kind
Where most important is the peace of mind

Where sorrows have no place
Where living for others is a craze
Where we believe everyone is equal no one is big/small
Where eveyday seems like a party in which everyone has a ball

Where virtue is more important than money
Where everyone is as sweet as honey
Where love is the healer of all sorrow
Where everyone looks forward to tomorrow

Wish such a world existed for real
Wish becomes sensitive this world so cruel
Wish comes true my dream of a prefect world now
Wish people understand the power of love

wish i could.............

wish i could turn back time
wish i could undo a few mistakes of mine
wish i could live my childhood again
wish i could live a life devoid of any pain
wish i could spread happiness everywhere
wish i could remove from everyone's lives sorrow and despair
wish i could teach everyone to hope
wish i could learn to, with changes cope
wish i could realize all of my dreams
wish i could say everything is as simple as it seems
wish i could make others understand the divinity of love
wish i could show them that all are equal, no one is high or low
wish i could cure jealousy and hatred with the medicines of love and care
wish i could show the brighter side of things, to the ones who find their pain impossible to bear
wish i could banish poverty and illiteracy from this world
wish i could ensure that everyone lives life like a free bird
wish i could make others realize that sometimes things are not in our hands
wish i could have THE PEACE GIVING magic wands
wish i could break the discrimination wall
wish i could make this world a better place to live for all
wish i could ensure that people's spirits don't ever dampen
wish i could find a way for all of this to happen

Y...?

Y do v turn a deaf ear,

towards the truth that v dont want to hear,

y do v refuse to see, the harsh truth right in front of thee,

to fool ourselves v choose,

to face d realities of life v refuse,

y do v shoose to run away from our fears,

y do v choose to hide our tears,

from doing what v want v refrain,

y r v living like this in bondage and disdain,

walking along life's twisted roads,

y do v burden ourselves with heavy loads,

y do v try to fulfill others expectations,

in our hearts building up frustrations,

y cant v be what v want to be, live our lives tension free???

The Road to Happiness

Life is a jungle deep and dark,


When there is time left leave your mark

Let time not fly away so fast

That you keep regretting your past



If you luv someone tell him then and there

Don't wait till the pain becomes difficult to bear

Even if that person's answer is a NO

Think in your life u have had an oppurtunity to grow



If you are confused about what to do

And you are feeling very very blue

Take a break and forget everything

Think the world is yours and you are its KING



If your heart is broken and you can't bear the pain

You think that you are living life in vain

Realize that you have so many others who love you

People who have true love, you are one of those lucky few



If without any reason you are feeling down

Instead of your precious smile, your face carries a frown

Go down the sweet pths of your memory lane

You will know in life you have not lost, this life itself is your biggest gain



When you expect something from someone very dear

And they fail to fulfill your wish and comes true your fear

Don't feel bad give him another chance

And the next time, be assured with joy he will make you dance



When you lose someone very close to your heart

You do not know, without him in life, from where to start

Do not think that you are all alone

Do not turn yourself into a living stone



Spread happiness in the world

You will feel like a free bird

With no sorrow, no bondages, whatsoever

With no regrets abiut being dumb or clever



Live life to the fullest

Think whatever you have is the best

Also appreciate the qualities that others have in them

You will realise that each person,in his own way,is as precious as a gem

To ma pa wit luv

every minute, every second of the day, i think about u for you i pray,


ur d pillar of my strength, my ray of hope,
 
had u nt suported me,with the difficult times in my life i could neva have coped,
 
d reason for my being, i dunt know hw m doing without seeing,
 
the smile on ur beautiful face, the sparkling eyes the wondrous gaze,
 
i miss the warmth of ur unconditional love,
 
the never-ending conversations that we would have,
 
every minute of my life with u i share,
 
ur an ocean of love and care,
 
will neva forget the sacrifices that u have made 4 me,
 
wateva i am today and wateva i will be,
 
is only coz of u,love u ma pa miss u2

Some things..

some things are better unsaid, some pasts are better if dead,


some things are better unheard, some things are better if hidden from the world

some truths are better unrevealed, some wounds can never be healed

some losses cannot be retrieved ever,some relations are forever

some dreams can never come true, sometimes the old is better than new

some lives are bettter than the rest, some results are worse than the test

sometimes the unpredictable nature of life is good,sometimes its nice to be haughty and rude

some small things are better than big ones,sometimes life seems to be all about having fun

sometimes its nice to let yourself go, sometimes it is better to not know....

Confused

life is so weird.....when u want sumthing badly it wil go further and further away from u. and when u make up ur mind that u can do w/o it, lo it walks right into ur arms!!




when ur confused about what to do,

everytg around seems weird and new

take a break and relax

do timepass to the max

give yourself some time to sort things out

in life every pbm has a way out

cherish all good memories and smile

don't u care if someone says u are juvenile

u have only 1 life, enjoy it to the fullest

take one thing at a time give yourslef some rest

its not necessary to get into the rat race

its more important to be content at heart and have a smile on your face

life is not about winning all the time

its about feeling that yes i have lived every moment of mine

look for happiness inside of you

remember that everyone has sorrow inside of them, everyone feels blue

it is upto you to combat this sorrow

and live life like there is no tomorrow

The story of the dark room

I found myself in a dark room one day


With no doors no windows and here i was to stay

Didnt know for how long this was supposed to be

I wanted to run away flee

Try and try as I might

I could not find any way for my flight

Slowly I started accepting things as they were

And all my dismay and worries started to blur

I found an insight into the hidden part of me

Which i had kept hidden from the world,which not even i could see

I learnt that one could be happy even with things so small

If he could only open his heart to one and all

There is nothing as powerful as love so pure

Which can many ailing hearts cure

Everyone yearns to be loved to be cared for

And when they dont get that they turn bitter towards others and sour

It is magical what wonders a simple smile can do

As soothing as the sight of the early morning dew

Everyone makes mistakes everyone errs

Everyone feels sad all shed tears

Happiness is contagious y nt spread it everywhere

Be happy with what you have be content with whatever is there

Everyone in this world is born with a purpose to do something

So never underestimate someone who is suffering

Every dark cloud has a silver lining

If today ur in sorrow tomorrow will into ur life a lot of joy bring

Love can heal any wound however deep

Open your heart to all you will forget to weep

I realized all this and found that the room was never dark after all

It was I, who was blinded with the fear of being hurt, fear that i would fall

Happiness is within yourself hidden inside of you

Seek it and see the world in a form totally new....

Gain in Pain

sometimes in life u want2 hold on2 sumthing


dont want2 let it go

since a lot of hapines4 u it did bring

bt now it has 2 go

u cnt stop this from happenning

howmucheva u try

u cnt stop ur heart frm hurting

hwmucheva u cry

nothing in life is permanent

keep this in mind

u have cherished moments u spent

in those u can ur happiness find

maybe this is just a passing phase

mayb things wl b like they were before

mayb this pain wil seem crazy in a few days

mayb ur heart wl shut its door

mayb in a few days

it wil cm back2 u

till then b brave keep a smile on ur face

start living life anew

if it doesnt come back

realise its purpose in ur life is served

of ur life dnt lose track

this s true even tho it may sound absurd

take on challenges new

open life's new door

life is 2 short number of days are few

and then d shower of happiness again on u wil pour

lessons in life

everytime i look back on my life, with tears fill my eyes


mostly have been foolish, but sometimes have been wise

for a few mistakes i made, i had to pay a heavy price,

but few of my mistakes have helped me in an unknown way, caused me to rise



few regrets i have, amends to which i will make someday

but the most important thing to do now, is to be joyous and gay

i want to be in control of my life dont want it to go astray

god give me the strength and wisdom to handle things everyday i pray



coz i have just 1 life, want to live it to the core

want to look forward to tomorrow, want to live life more

want to be like the waves which keep coming onto the shore

knowing they will be pulled back, yet not giving up for sure